low rumble

a low rumble
or maybe a distant sound that isnt so much a sound as it is a tangible vibration that you can feel in your bones

like something just below earthquake status

you cant tell if you feel it or hear it

probably both


if you look hard enough, you think you can see it

but you dont know if its just you tricking yourself or if there is really something there


you arent tricking yourself

there really is something there



as the noose tightens, the intensity of the rumble increases

it becomes more evident and can only be ignored by moderate-to-heavy doses of refined sugar, caffeine, or stronger substances



if you ingest these substances, you can get yourself to pretend that the rumble isnt there for a while

you can ignore it


but the same way a merry-go-round ends, the high ends

and you come back to wondering what the fuck that thing is in the distance


relentless like anything naturally big

taking swings at it is like trying to knock down a mountain with a axe


part of you wants to call it nightmare
but you take a look around you and the other part of you wants to call it anti-nightmare


that low rumble

ominous

possibly dark
but not dark like night

dark like mud

the thing that makes things rot and loves rotten things

its alive but it takes life

not because it has malice
but just because thats the way it moves

like a big bird that takes out little birds just by flapping its wings


you put up a great struggle and in hindsight, it will be seen as having been a valiant effort

nitro fuel and aspartame
using salt to preserve for a later date so you dont have to constantly move around

all the plastic really did seem like a good idea at the time

so you can stay stationary and try to figure out what exactly it is you got yourself involved in








preliminary lab results indicate: no harm - no foul




long-term effects: suffocation





the baby gets pushed along the street in the stroller so its nostrils are at exhaust-pipe level

it grows up to be easily led in the wrong direction


that thing rumbling in the distance learns to develop a taste for all things
until its so obvious that even a 6 cups of coffee cant get you motivated to focus on your business
snorting coke off a strippers titties cant get you hard

everything so imminent that even suicide seems redundant because you arent sure if you died already



its distressing until its hilarious
its hilarious until it is unfortunate
its unfortunate until it can be appreciated

once appreciated you look down and you are riding a low rumble